I've always been the fuck up
Never really getting anything right
Some days are harder than others
But it catches up with me at night
At night when all is quiet
And everyone's asleep
My mind lets loose my demons
And all the secrets they keep
Every lie I've ever told
My deepest insecurities
Every bad decision made
And all of my impurities
I take refuge in my bathroom
Scrubbing til I'm raw
I find sanctuary in my music
Amidst the threatening maw
Still I find no comfort
Still no peace to be found
So with this final fuck up
They'll lay me to rest in the ground
Everyone will shed their tears
In bewilderment and disbelief
And while I know I should feel guilty
It feels more like relief
My agony has finally passed
I no longer feel the pain
The fuck up finally succeeded
Just as it began to rain
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