Clasping onto my pillow ,
thinking about my life,
it feels like I'm in a big mess,
'Should I be thankful for what I have ?
or just
lament over all the things I wanted but didn't
achieve.'
My brain is exploding ,
lub-dub ,lub-dub lub-dub, goes my heart
drowning out all sounds from reality .
the salty tears just keep flowing ,
may be a minute or a few,
a sniffle or two.
Inhaling deeply,
slowing down the furious pumping of blood,
Sticky face, light head,
all well and back to normal .
Maybe letting go isn't that bad after all.
©chandinie
C