Sitting here through the sidelines watching
My greatest fear is seeing I am truly nothing
My weakness becomes greater than my fear
I feel and see the end is actually truly near
I really hate that this tongue of mine is silent
My head is filling up with screams and violent
These feelings I have are becoming numb
What I let people see and hear is only some
I only destroy the ones I am surrounded by
I can only sit here and think why me why
Drowning in it in my mind that I am stuck with
Think its ones true fate to be stuck with it
How can I make things better when I am stuck
I can not help myself till I drink till I'm drunk
I want to be numb and be as numb as I can
When I become someone who I can really stand
Where time literally doesnt seem to exist
The feeling it gives me I cant seriously resist
When I am screaming as loud as I can be
But only in my head so I'm as silent can be
Just when my skies are dark as they can get
I'm only human just filled with so much regret
How can I save someone else if I cant save me
I'm sorry I spoke too much ill just let it be
©deathbear
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