once again I'm starring at the ceiling
my thoughts and memories that I keep believing
my mistakes are vicious out of paradise
killing me each time I create big lies
my mind can't take off the memories that hunt
they turn to shadow, I ask what do you want
my mistakes are done, leave me alone
my memories is still fresh, that my mind always roam
hear me out crying for help
listen to me before I kill myself
I keep going back in time
thoughts and words I couldn't rhyme
just how large is that mistake
that thing I cannot take
my hallucinations is growing bad
my delusions are making me mad
I'm confused whether it's real or not
I'm freaking scared where my mind is wondering at
Listen to me, I'm begging you
so that I could open up for me to be free too
but it's hard to tell you my thoughts
I'm afraid you might laugh at me
just how much pain am I gonna bury inside
I'm scared and trapped I always hide
I'm still wishing I'll get better
I just can't take it, but I'll hold on a little longer
©a_zero
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