Alarm clock wakes me up,
I'm weeping
my broken hearts grown.
As Daily I remember
you really aren't coming home.
In fractured shards of memory
I want to recall
Did I forget to say the words
"I won't let you fall."
If I only would have...
I will wonder throughout my life.
What did you see in him?
Am I blind?
You did your best being his wife.
Nothing matters now,
your gone.
The rest of us are expected
just to move on.
Everybody else can go
but I refuse to budge
Because you are my friend
who never waned, and did not judge.
I'm changed forever, by your pain
that I failed to see.
Hopefully, you know I'm devastated
and you will forgive me.
I want to dial your number every day
at least one hundred times
But your not gonna answer.
You left me behind
I pray you found desired peace
some place above us all
Good bye Rene,
I say through tears I let fall
You were my kindred spirit
for over twenty years.
My soul is lost
without yours just being near.
Heidi Shavill
2020
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