Growing up I saw my brothers lost faith
I thought to myself why don't I do the same?
Maybe because life's too fast and I can't keep up with the pace
I can't think straight when they think I'm a disgrace!
I say I'm okay but Damn it's getting difficult
Play me like a ball then put me in a catapult.
Pour me some alcohol
This ones for the fallen and all
Who stayed beside me
Who knew my story but never judged me
We're all like robots tell me where's my manual?
I'm too complicated and I can't figure it out on my own.
I knew I was Toby but right now? I don't know anymore!
I feel like music
Give me a minute I think I lost my beat
I feel like love
But no one feels me
I feel like the sun
But without the heat!
If you ever loved me can you raise your hands up?!
Give me some type of reassurance this is too much
Everything I've worked hard for is burned to the ground
I'm quite obvious and lost so why am I not found?
Tell me I'm the king of what?
I'm in this deep slump
Every time I talk I feel a lump
And I'm ashamed
I just lost my Mum and writing that line is dreadful
It makes me sick to my stomach
I think I'm gonna throw up
It's too hard to breathe
I'm gonna regret this life and in the day I die?
I'm going to sing every truth in my lies
I'm sick of God not listening to me
But then again I never listened to him
I'm so sick of these endings
But too tired to begin things.
I want to play messy
but this ain't soccer
King of what?
I'm the King of slaughter
And I'm gonna kill this piece
I hope every one reads this remembers me
I'm Toby
so when I forget you better remind me
Life is hard
but I'm not going to taste defeat.
C