Screamin and crying
I've got a tummy ache
Fever hot
Ice cream
I wanna have a nice dream
The sounds sound fuzzy
Deeper
Silent
But later I hear
In class there was a ringing
A screaming
Too loud
To ignore the fear
That looks so tasty
Looks so sweet
But I can't have it
No I can't eat
I wanna be small
I wanna be thin
I wanna have short hair
And a binder to fit in
I wanna look pretty
I wanna be strong
I wanna wear a suit and tie
I want to sing my song
Let me be a boy
Or maybe something else
I just wanna have a choice
But my mind says, "you don't know yourself"
I wish I was a boy
Tall and handsome
Broad and fierce
I want to have fun
I feel like a boy
My chest annoys me
It feels so unreal
It disgusts me more than I can feel
I feel like a boy
My pants feel empty
I don't want what I have
I just want it all
I am a boy
Lost in a girls body
Lost in my head
Lost in your words
,"Dont cut your hair"
"Leave it be"
Because you love my hair
Its like you, soft and sweet
Why should I listen?
Because I care?
But I care too much.
You know this isn't fair
You have too much control
But I guess I let you
It doesn't matter that I want things
If I want to keep you with me
But I just want to be a boy.
Please.
I can't tell you but you've got to know
Please.
I hate my chest,
Though you're jealous.
Why?
Why?
It feels so wrong
I want it gone!
Please
Someone help me
On the inside
I am a boy
I hate my chest
Having it flat brings me joy
I felt so happy
the one time I binded
I felt so free
And thats all I want to be
Let me be free
Let me be a boy
Let me be happy
Just let me please
I love you
But this is me
I want to change
Can't you see?
Someone help
Help me please
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