Once again I'll call your name.
but you won't answer.
Foolish heart quakes with pain,
mocking my embrace .
I push away longing, aching company,
wither I decay from this emptiness
Looking glass shattered eyes,
bleeding so softly.
A selfish hollow smile
cracking my foundation.
Bleeding me dry, a foolish display.
Quite indifferent as the tides
of time have now turned
And the past is buried
in a drift of whirling snow
Trail amidst the snow-clad trees,
winding is the way
Sunless is the path we roam,
bitter is the air we breathe
Fell is the icy blast, coming from the hills
Blowing through my ailing heart,
wailing in the emptiness inside.
Vanished is the light we had,
hidden deep in rimy soil
Bereft of us the one I cherished,
lost for ever our love
Still at night I see her figure
Flickering on moonlit glades
But passing is the hope shes giving
Just a faintest breath of air
and shes gone again
Slender the shape in night,
unbearable the beauty
Shining in the silvery light,
watching me with wistful eyes
Evanescent this vision,
unattainable this illusion
But an image in my troubled dreams,
hewn out of yearning and rue.
You walk through my thoughts
and tear me down.
A masochist some would say,
but it feels like home to me.
Winter moods illuminating me
these lasting impressions elevate me.
This last thing I do not regret
These thoughts consume me in flames
& leave me wallowing in the bitterest pain.
though it feels like home to me.
She was my sun and now
the light has faded away
Night condensing around me,
leading me astray
Shining image torn down,
remembrance of her fades
Left but anguish and shame
to haunt me in the shades
...White sheet covering all things left behind...
And from now on there's an absence of hope...
So be it, perdition is my home,
Since the day it all came down.
From now on there's an absence
Foul voices welcome me to loneliness
Graceful tunes on her lips have now ceased
This winter's here to surpass all the hopes
And dreams succumb to
nightmares and freezing air
Shield of lies,
my despair on display
Gray now, I'm broken.
Hands around my throat,
a violent loving embrace.
I tremble the thought, lips fading silently
One last I love you to crush my resolve again.
They who never got sorrow,
Grinding grief in their hearts
Never lost a thing,
Never had a thing
They who never witnessed beauty,
That flamed even the all-encompassing night
Never lost a thing,
Never had a thing.
With rime dressed-faces I wander
With guilt carved-hearts I flee
With grim stained-minds I ponder
Between hope and despair
I recognize your face.
For longer days I'm tasting
this strange redemption.
Without you've bled me dry.
Now blood falls from these wounds
Into the airless night.
Now these bitter tears run ceaseless,
And drown my hope far too deep
It must've been the day we parted
When I trapped this sadness in me
And so does the downhearted tune
Resound through this murky night
And the wind groan its wistful song
For the ill-lucked dwellers in plight
Forward slowly through this snow grey day
Under the forest's white canopy
Out of the drifting snow's way
May the stars become my eyes
And the wind become my hearing
Let them guide me through
These pitch-dark mornings
May the snowfall end
And the shining moon rise
So we can find our way out
From these all-consuming nights
Underneath the blanket of stars
Embraced by another cold night
Leave these shores behind
Brought back from the silence
As darkness whitened into a day
Tried to weave the pieces together
Force the past away
Mind weary of sorrow
Body tired from the way
Welcomed yet another morning
Of longing and dismay
I Wade across vast snowfields
Journey through endless Moors.
Wretched is my lot here,
mirthless is my fate
Alone to face the cruel winters,
endure the dreary cold
So echoes my tune through
these darkling shaws
Above the frozen streams resounds my song
Only these sullen trees will hearken to me
Only snow-bound hills ever hear my call
Solace I find in the light
of the pale moon
My comfort in the night
the murmur of the trees
Now I set forth
without ever glancing back
It is time to make my own way
through the dusk
Hear me call you.
These dark clouds
I cant see through.
Though in this tone
I'm like a child in wanting.
A feeling not unlike regret
permeates me &
with a new birth I'll be set free.
In passing, I recall with such vivid clarity
the soft whispering of foolish notions.
Too late I realized my wrongs
and my carelessness.
Now I'm stone
Believe me my sorrow runs deep.
I know not peace.
You are better gone now,
you are set free.
From these wounds
I claim redemption
The lasting impressions of you
Being in my arms has led me far away
Colors fading, I lay restful & safe
I can feel the rhythm of your heart.
©infj-loki
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