I’m not me lately and it’s driving me insane, I can’t seem to move forward because I’m drowning in pain.
Some days I feel lonely, even in a crowd and that’s when I can’t seem to stop myself from screaming out loud.
Everyone asks me if I’m okay but the smile on my face is nothing but a bluff, so why can’t anyone see that I’m just not that tough?
I’m not me lately and I keep losing hope, I can’t snap out of this and find the right way to cope.
Every time I’m happy it comes to an end,
I can’t believe I’m back here and crying again.
I’m not me lately and I’m starting to worry, what is wrong with me? Is this my only story?
I’ve been used and abused,
I’ve been loved beyond words,
but why is my pain the only thing being unheard?
I feel like a failure to everyone I love,
I can’t seem to push forward and stay up above.
I’m not myself lately and my past is a horror movie that seems to never stop, I don’t know what I’m doing wrong and why I can’t come out on top.
I’m not suicidal and I don’t want to die,
I just want to sleep my days away so no one hears me cry.
Everyone painted this picture of who they thought I’d be,
without even asking if it’s the right life for me.
I’m tired of being angry and not knowing what I wanna be, this life is really hard and lately, I’m just not me.
S