I'm not one who play the victim card
But the past few years have been hard
I was challenged mentally
And it showed in my physicality
There were days I'd have chosen death
Instead of dealing with my health
There were days I'd wish to run away
As far as I can not to deal with myself
Other days I felt just okay
And I'd give myself all the love
That souls are yearning for
But then again, just like before
Shadows darkened my view
My spirit is painted blue
But at some point it will end
In fact my brokenness will mend
And if I don't start now
Where will I be next year
If I don't start to grow
I'll just keep walking in fear
And my ultimate conclusion
Not my new years resolusion
Is to focus a little more on me
And be the best I can be
So I will take tiny baby steps
Until I can finally make that giant leap
©lenni-x
L