All the Faith faded from me long ago.
The devil has been testing my soul.
He won't let me just let shit go.
It's about breaking the cycle from the inside out.
Inside my head I hear the old me shout.
He just wants to let it out.
The new guy turns him down and drowns him out.
Three in the morning I cannot sleep.
Depression has left me in this trash heap.
I can't feel anything about anyone.
I used to be the go to guy.
So who do I go to when I need some help?
Why does the sound of silence sound so loud?
I see you judging me does it make you proud?
Like a bird I seek shelter from the rain.
Somewhere I can learn to deal with my pain.
I once was explosive like a speeding bullet fired from a gun.
Now I've wilted away in the blistering sun.
So many times I've felt like I'm at the end of my rope.
A lost soul seeking it's way back to hope.
Have you ever just felt hopeless?
If you've felt real pain then this feeling you know this.
I lived so hard in my younger days.
Now I'm an old man stuck in his ways.
Learning to live again is the hardest part.
Especially when in your mind you don't know where to start.
Life can be hard to swallow.
You have to consume it in parts.
If not you'll end up with a broken heart.
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