Everyone I get close to leaves me
I'm left behind in the shadows that were once people
People I cared for
They swallow me up in darkens
How do I escape
Do I have the will? The want? ...
A reason to?
The moment I start to care, share, express myself I'm left in the dark
Many are around but do not see the dim overcast hovering me.
My heart is filled with uncertainty
Heavy and scarred
It burns, knowing nothing about how to feel.
Normal emotions are no longer something I can express
I feel like a tinman and scarecrows child
Both mind and heart are gone; broken.
Reality is dim, gloomy
I have control of myself, yet feel trapped in my own body
Because I am forgotten
Have been left behind
Am I repulsive?
Can't anybody see me?, can't you?
I'm hurting inside
Every part of me feels broken and used
Who really cares?, who really sees?, who heards my silent cries?
For I have many and want to be saved
Saved for once in my life.
I no longer wanting to be the strong one, holding others world's together
I want someone to hold me tight and keep me together
Is it to much to ask?....
©savy
S