Let me make this clear I don't wanna be here u didn't know her lIke I did that wasn't ur sister And u never helped comfort her crying kids as they wiped their tears while she was alive nah she wasn't here . You didn't know her for who she was she was attracted to broken niggas and thugs just because u slept with her don't make u family her life choices blocked her blessings and created toxic surroundings . As a child she was smart athletic and talented bright and had a godly sperit until one day she met a boy who made her into the demon mother her children fear she had a baby when she was a baby after he was born she didn't care she was not the same the drugs the wanting to be a teen still was the blame . Instead of calling for help when she had no where to go she slept in the car with her two kids smoked meth as they breathed it all in for 3 days straight she stayed high and had her boyfriend for the moment and her kids by her side . She chose death her own dark path she always walked faught anyone who tried to help she wanted to get high maybe she hated her self she chose suicide but how so she didn't kill her self . That last high she swore she needed took her life no blood shead needed . I don't hate her I don't I don't live her either and I won't . I was there for her when no one would be watching her children so she could go sell her body only to get high and she never said anything to her son's not a I love u or a goodbye so y should I cry she's dead lying here in a casket I am hurt I am sad my first best friend she was my everything so that's y I'm mad I risked my life to try to help her control hers she never wanted to not be high that was her problem not mine . One day I will apologise for not always saying I love you and hi I could not speak to u when u were alive I had no idea who u were not even who u were inside I'll always be here for ur kids without a doubt but u took ur own life selfishly theirs no doubt I'd cry over a stranger rest your soul I pray God helps heal what u thought the drugs would fix I miss the little u b4 drugs and your I need a fix
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