Dear Dad,
Last night I dreamt that I was about to board my flight
When I got a call from my aunt, She asked me to come back that it was urgent
When I got there, she started crying, at first I wasn't even moved by the mood in the room
Cause we all know how emotional aunty can get, until she gave me that look
The look I've never seen before which gave my heart a shock
In her eyes, I saw pity and great sadness, I knew that look spelt doom
They told me you died,
My first love, my first best friend , my father, my dad
I opened my eyes and it occurred to me that it was only a bad dream
I took my phone to call and saw the time was 2am
I realized that all the hate I've built in me
Is nothing compared to the love I have for ye
I've blamed you for mom, me and everything
I think It's high time I forgave you though I never got an apology or something
This morning,
I texted you " Good morning sir, are you okay Dad?"
I cringed at how formal the first three words were and sounded in my head
The depth and width of this gap between became so real to me
Our conversations used to be so free
So, I've decided
Let's leave everything behind,
especially as you replied "yes...my baby I'm okay"
I was touched, realizing how you must have suffered too, I didn't know what to say
I know now that no one can ever replace you
I realize now that I made things complicated too
I became too cool to talk to you
I'm sorry and now I need to make things right
So in years to come I don't live in regret.
I just want to make up for the lost times
I want to make new and beautiful memories
I want to spend lots of time with you
I hope you want the same too
Love,
©humble
H