All of my attempts to reach for the holy grail, with everything I got every inch of my strength I fall short and fail, I'd find myself looking for leverage something to depend on it leaves me embracing a crutch, without accomplishment comes the fading of love, the passion inside me that pushes me to keep pushing and striving, when I get closer to my goal it seems inevitable that I fall, the devastation that comes from that humility makes me learn to get back up and stand tall, that dependency I rely on to be social to feel the required strength to stand alone, to reach the holy grail without my crutches is the goal, to be social for the love of it is a step in the right direction, how can I see within myself without the mirror complexion, without feeling good about myself how can I place the proper step, without misplacing a foot falling over the edge, the hardest difficulty is turning my thoughts into action, or when I'm doing something below good resulting in my satisfaction, the beauty inside my mind the sheer thought of how pretty it is makes a tear drop my eye, I push all the crutches aside with the realization of all these dependencies caused pure destruction in my life, I don't need material objects to get me through, no drinking or smoking to feel as though it will helo me gain a clearer point of view, but a deep breath alone a major fundamental component, striving for greatness at the same time struggling to find atonement, I'm dreading the feeling of needing this and that in order to reach the goals I wish to persue, I struggle but push to avoid other individuals as my opposition I put my head down and push through, negative feedback is something I refuse, I push all the negative aspects in my life aside and remain a recluse, I'm dreading the feeling of needing this and that to help myself out, as I write I'm dropping bad habbits and letting go of my doubt....
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