have you ever tried being happy, a lesbian who can't have sex with other girls and a member of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints?
I have. 6 years I lived as a lesbian. 6 of the best years of my life.. 1.5 years of the 6 I was in one of the most beautiful relationships I've ever been in ..as a matter of fact it's the only one I've been in.
after turning 21 I drank. did edibles slept with woman, had sex in a truck with a man cuz I was hella mad & wanted to know if I really was gay. yup definitely gay. smoke cigarettes. I literally did ever single thing the church says no on. I watched R rated movies.
During all this, I never bad mouthed the church. I stood up for and continued to support and defend the church.
I did this because I knew that my Father in heaven was watching out for me. I knew he would protect me.
do I regret coming back. some days. some days I plead for Heavenly Father would take me back so I didn't have these trials....I look and see no light at the end of the tunnel. Heavenly Father gave me these things to learn to deal with.
So lesmormon I am.
don't get me wrong if any guy would look at me the way women do...I'd already be married with babies.
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