I had my fair share of life's ups and downs, beaten to the ground by the daily struggles, betrayed, misused and abused. Love try to kill me many times, the heart gave up many times but the mind say you can do this. Wrestling in my sleep with the nightmare that trying to overthrow my dream. Woke up in tears and no shoulder to lean nor console me, my whole life I'm my own enemy, too caring, now in my face the pain staring, too easy to love, now I feel I had enough. Being a good man taught me one thing, being stupid isn't a option, live to please people is like trying to start a truck with a empty tank that has no diesel. Live in the dark and doing 360 around the light, God said my son, are you ready? I said not quite. Fighting these demons with all my might, bearing the pain, squeezing my fist tight. Living but that doesn't mean I'm alive, the dead rest in peace but even in my sleep I can't rest with ease. Beautiful smile doesn't mean I'm healthy and the luxury doesn't mean I'm wealthy. Don't be fooled by appearance Of things but by the absence of things.
03/07/2020
©donovan
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