I used to pray every night, what a hopeless soul I was.
I used to pray every night, now I cry before the suns daylight.
I used to pray every night, when I thought there was a god above, but now I see its false, just something made up to keep you hoping, fighting and striking.
I don't judge the ones who believe, I actually envy what they see, because when they feel as if their all alone, they can look to the sky and say "thank you for being here when I need you the most."
Maby he is real and he just doesn't like me, or is he to busy to love me? Oh wait "God loves all", then why am I the one who picks myself up when I fall?
-Note to the Lord's-
Hello my name Is katie, I've prayed beyond my knees once as a little baby.
Can you hear my whispers, begging for mercy? I've made mistakes...dear lord, please forgive me.
I hate and I love you but I don't know why I do.
You never gave me your hand even when I ran from my feelings you never told me to look back.
Hell, you never told me "It's ok"
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Forget it, I'm done relying on the empty black sky.
I dont need your love or hand, I've made it this far....me and my scars.
©kit-kat
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