My eyes fixed on a single spot
Expecting my body to simply rot
So numb I am drained by every thought
I really miss them a lot
Unsure of every step I take
I can only wish it were fake
I gave them up for their sake
My tears fall feeling like I will brake
I watch the world slowly pass me by
Even when I look up to the sky
Without my babies I feel as if I will die
I miss the diapers the smelly bottles and when they cry
Thinking of my children growing
Believing they will live their life knowing
By giving them up love is what I'm showing
Beautiful little eyes stare wondering where I am going
I kissed my babies before I leave
I wipe my tears on my sleeve
To think I could take care of them I was naive
I wish the brightest future for them to weave
My oldest was 10 pounds 3 ounces, so big
My soul was excavated by his eyes they dig
But he was ripped from me like a game that was a Rig
I even stopped smoking not a single cig
She was 6 pounds 2 ounces my tiny girl
When I held her for the first time I felt as if the world was in a swirl
I only saw her for three days after her birth unfurl
They took her from my arm and stole my valuable pearl
Then there is my youngest 6 pounds 8 ounces
Every time he looks took me my heart bounces
I looked at him and in that moment his father i renounced
In my head his name I will forever pronounce
©helenklemp
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