I felt a sudden shift and it seemed all the weight that I carried every day was lifted off my shoulders and I then just knew I felt relaxed and whole for the first time in my life as if I was renewed
The sensations that went through my body at that precise momeant was like no other I have ever felt Thats when i knew that we would be ok because nothing that intense could be fake or from the bottom of the deck be delt
Never agaIn will I doubt my spirit body and soul Who i have fought with many times for have kept me from my goal
For now I am at peace here in my mind The friction that was is gone and my body has no pain and feels find
The turbulence that was inside is calm now and not ragging like the rapid of a river It is still and tranquill likethat of a cold mountain lake I have finally found my inner peace just the thought of it makes me quiver
No never again will doubt my spirits body and soul Who I have fought with many times for they have kept me from my goal
It makes me happy and sad that yes I found that I can be in hamony with in my mind Where once I could not even escape or even an exit find
I was scared of the demons that chased me and so many times I had to fight I had no choice but to dwell in the darkness to stay alive I had to live in night
When my eyes open today no more demons chase away
No never again will doubt my spirits body and soul Who I have fought with many times for they have kept me from my goal
A new beginning a chance to start over where there is no more tormeant Where I was once out of control Now I am at peace with my mind and body as a whole
I went walking for the first this morningbdid not one dog bark at me My whole life animals were afraid you see
i got barked bitten bucked off quacked at even chased down. but today was different quiet peaceful no animal came out yapping and ready to fight for their ground
No matter what happen from here on out I am grateful for the breif look at how life should be I will continue to work my frailties and my struggles with reality
I will not let others make.decissions for me anymore I will always help those in need but from now until my end of days I will live my life for me to experience to love to laugh to write to enjoy to open new doors
to live my life for me
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