empty half vacant bed.
tears dried on my pillow cuz you are not here.
I can still hear my screams the whistle to the wind of a quiet night.
a emptiness tearing aching at the seams.
a perfect paradise was you and me.
yet I picked my phone your pictures are there faded yet visible a longing cause I still care.
I lay on the couch and I cry myself to sleep.
the horror of my screams the lingering of your moans are still with me.
you haunt me like the hug from you I still feel.
your slender seductive smooth body crashing into me.
your sandy red long hair that smells like raspberries.
your red cherry lipstick that tastes heavily on my lips sore I imagine the kiss.
the embrace I used to miss.
fore 40 is too young to be gone.
it's unfair, the longing for someone.
you're running with angels while I rot on this shit hole.
but I can't hate you.
there's only love.
to love someone older than you and to be taken and snatched to God above.
it makes you hate religion it makes you ask why it's makes you cuss the dirt instead of wiping the tears from your eye.
I tasted heaven with these lonely thoughts of mine.
I ponder I felt hell as I wanted you back such sweet Devine.
your pictures, the tears burning my eyes I felt the life of you leave me in time.
the ghost I been denying.
your smile your laugh your tears in your blue eyes once upon a time they were once all mine.
I can still feel your perky breasts their warmth as they burned my chest our final hug our fingers caressing at the touch as you gently pulled away your smile still fresh in my head it's was my last chance to say goodbye.
now it's a faded memory lost in time.
©darkdeity
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