I lose myself.
Everytime I look at you.
every time those sapphire eyes burn holes into my soul.
again and again I lose control.
drowning in angelic beauty.
every detail haunting my eye became a explicit memory for later.
porcelain becomes my favorite color.
blue become a color of passion.
softness becomes the sweetest taste to me.
yet I lose myself every time you stare my way.
paralyzed to speak as I hold my breath.
again and again I'm dying for a taste just a touch.
fever spreads and I blush too much.
losing myself to your giggles of a laugh.
dying every time you sigh.
falling in love without even trying.
yet that smile it kills me and I can't even lie.
wanting you.
but rejection wants me to die.
but you plague my existence.
leaving me defenseless.
the want of a kiss too sweet.
you're my friends you say and I die by the poison I fell in love with to drink.
yet in my dreams every one I have is starving for you.
yet my dreams consist of you.
in nights where I'm cold and alone.
and the thought of you alone warms me.
yet I look in your eyes and my world crumbling becoming small again.
yet every night I drown myself in you.
no one ever knows.
yet it's only in my dreams where I get to have you.
knowing it's just torture, it's just misery.
yet I wonder when you close your eyes do you see.
dreams where me and you are nothing but a moment lost in time.
yet you don't know I think about you all the time.
even when there's another girl in the room.
even when eyes are all on me but all I see is you.
no noise.
no one else.
but you.
it's a losing game but I can't get my eyes off you.
it's like time is no time itself.
five minutes goes by in seconds.
yet in a hour you are the only person I wanna feel.
dreams of a fantasy that I want so bad to be real.
©darkmocha
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