I crave for pain. I crave for that blade to hit my vain. I want to bleed to the point I can know longer see. I wanna see my blood seep out of me.
I need to feel that rush of death creeping up on me. I feel like life has given up on me.
I feel like death has befriended me. I feel like God has betrayed me!
I hope the others can hear me scream. I hope they feel the pain that is inside of me. I wish that I could be free. Free from this demon That has taken Ahold Of me.
But I can't be free and I'll never be able to be me. I will never feel what true happiness could be. I'm too angry at God for what he has done to me.
My life was a joke. My family mocks me. They laugh at my face while I cry for someone to just help me.
I have no help my mind is broke my soul is gone my life is just a joke.
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