Her lips press softly against mine
Blood rushes to every portion of my body
Sounds of her voice begin to fade
Reality sets in as I realize I'm losing her again
The world around me transitions into an abyss of nothingness
She is the last fragment of my illusionary world
No more do I wish for this pain
I can't bare the pain of having a life without you
I reach out to grasp hold of a past memory
Begging my mind to allow a couple of more minutes with her
Without remorse I return to the agony known as the real world
Tears stream without end
Sweat drenches my bunched up sheets
Out of instinct I turn to my right
Hoping that the warmth of another stops my trembling hand
Praying that her sleeping peacefully will calm my rapid breathing
My heart aches as I touch nothing but cold air
Color fades from my eyes
I go slack for the sole reason of having nothing to live for
She's gone and there is nothing I can do about it
There is a table in the dining room
Laughter used to emanate every evening after a long day of work
There is a couch in the living room
Romantic dates and idol chats forever associate with it
There is a king size bed
Passionate love of a married couple took place there many nights
There is a closet full of clothes
Beautiful garments line up nicely never to be worn again
There is a bathroom remembered for its many tears
Memories of sad times from a failure to have a child
Stronger are the memories of acceptance and the bond of two people growing stronger
There is a house that holds all of these
It used to be filled with many emotions
Now there are only two
Sadness and grief
I think back to the times spent together
Sipping a cup of coffee at every chance I get
My wife's death haunts me every day
The sight of warm blood over my cold hands
Her fading smile as she assures me she'll be okay
The lifelessness in her eyes as the paramedics pull me away
My mouth quivers as I reminisce the horrific accident
Large tears are about to break through
Then a voice whispers to me
One nostalgia enough to halt my fit
I quickly look to my right
A beautiful woman with white hair blinds me
Her feet gracefully touch down on the dirty floor
She is wearing white garments that accentuate her physique
Without realizing I speak the name of this woman
She gives a loving smile
Causing me a loss of words she speaks in my stead
"Please sweety, do not lose sight of what is important.
"Commiting the dark desires you have in your aching heart would cause me great pain.
"Cherish the memories of the past. Not using them as a crux to die, but as a motivation to live."
She walks toward me
My eyes keep locked with hers
"I love you and forever will."
Her arms embrace me as her body fades away
"Madeline... thank you my love."
Are the only words that escape my lips
Hope finally fills my heart again
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