Your here but your not here,
I look at you while you look through me,
Avoided because I'm never good company.
Just a reminder of what's been and still remain,
This type of mixed emotions helps to set in the insane,
Wondering why your always upset with me or mad,
While I make it all worse by feeling depressed and sad,
Your here but you couldn't be further away,
There was once a time that you cared what I had to say,
I don't want to lose you but reality counts each day.
The things that need to change properly never will,
Unless we both come to realize the process to heal,
I can't let you leave cause it rips apart my soul,
The fear possesses me I no longer have control,
It's you and me and your here now I deceive,
Telling myself you want to be here and not wanna leave,
But my heart already knows that's dangerous to believe.
Your here but your not here,
I'm love and losing you my dear.
©justin_ur
J