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I remember that one dawn..
It was the first beautiful sunrise, bursting colors upon the world.
You asked for my permission to pursue me
to take our friendship and mutual feelings
into something more,
something deeper
something higher
something wider
much more serious,
with consistency and responsibility
something official and real,
- a committed relationship.
"Finally," I inhaled.
"YES!" was my joyful answer.
You could see it in my eyes...
the tears attempting to paint the sun rising as it trickle down my cheeks.
Exchange
of
iloveyous.
We've been in love with each other for more than four years then.
It was a moment that lasted for months.Your question lasted for months.
Your efforts and consistency sadly didn't last.
I guess when the sun came setting for the day, to welcome the moon,
your words became untrue.
One night you just dropped everything.
You wanted to stop pursuing me.
"I'm not yet ready," you said softly.
To be my boyfriend?
To commit to me?
I don't know, you didn't say.
"I'm not asking for you to take me because I still wasn't sure," you reasoned out.
Wasn't sure of me?
Wasn't sure of us?
Wasn't sure if you're ready to commit?
TELL ME.
I could've asked, but I couldn't spit the words. These words are too ugly, too pitiful, to blurt out to a man I just spent almost five years of my life
...in an almost relationship.
My love, your heart was like that sun, we saw that day.
It's warm, beautiful, something to look forward to.
My love, your heart is like that sun we saw, it rises and sets down, each and every day;
...everchanging.
consistent at being inconsistent.
indecisive.
My love, you loved me like a sun.
You rise and set, each and every day.
Your heart beats,
beats
beats
for me
and one day just stops
as the rainy season comes to interrupt.
But even if I blew the crying clouds away,
to see your love once again
the sun was there
but your love did not come back that day.
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