we've never dated.
but the longing is there.
teasing like a flicker like a glimmer of light.
yet the feelings linger.
they crawl under my skin.
feelings unknown.
emotions I was fully aware.
to dare to love.
to feel you more than friends.
dreams of you I'm haunted by.
yet I take you as a friend as a win.
erotic nightmares I covenant of you.
wet dreams I get lost in a trance because of you.
wanting to touch but our fingers never touch.
wanting to kiss but the invisible brush of lips only haunts us.
yet this mad chemistry between us only exists to want blindly.
yet I don't love you moderately.
I want it all.
every kiss.
every hug.
every fuck.
secrets I Dare to keep.
yet when I think of you.
when I see you always in my dreams.
fuckin me then leaving before the new dawn.
I can't help but ache.
yet I awake.
it's just a dream.
but my fist clenched in sheets left vacant.
as again and again you revisit we fuck and then you leave.
endlessly I'm Peter Pan and you were the alluring Wendy yet I belong to infamous Tinkerbell.
yet I'm lost in Neverland for a love that I wish to be.
where dreams come true.
as my heart falls victim every time yet to wish to love blindly that wasn't just mad chemistry.
©darkdeity
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