Madness,
the art of thinking out the normal, beyond the stars to an extent this universe doesn't seems like your own.
I'm kinda mad.
No, hear me out, it's not the madness that should be recognized by a doctor, or maybe it should or the madness that makes you want to go rehab just to get better.
However, it could be the madness that leads to those s ideation ( don't start with the thought diagnosis).
My mind feels unlike my own, unlike yesterday, like I could probably walk in the sky and not need oxygen.
A headache, the numbness that is on my right, my working hemisphere probably proving that I might be going to the abyss of madness, or probably need water.
My thoughts feel deranged( you can read them now), talking to some random stranger expecting him/ her to read this and give in to my ideations ( like rn) ,
and some how I don't want to think, some how I just wanna sink into clear water, view the clear sky and have the sun on my dark brown dry skin patting me dry.
I want a clear mind, clear thought process.
The thoughts racing through this numbing head of mind are those no one can put their finger on, like " what are you thinking about? "
And all I might answer is nothing, cause nothingness is what my feels are.
I'm going home, maybe it's family I'm missing, maybe it's the blue light coming from this screen, maybe it's the hormones and stress combined or
maybe it's just the fact that I woke up confused af feeling like sht after eating too much carbs