An enthusiastic thrill, with ecstasy the mind and body is filled,
Inside a thick barren shell my true self refuses to reveal,
Reluctantly feel vulnerable without hesitation to conceal,
Cold hard solidified Steele,
Iron that castigates cheerfulness in general ordeals,
With matters true self plumets,
With two halfs the creation what I must portray but still how can my true self be summoned,
The energetic thrill thats truely stunning,
On the inside a spirit lifting emotion on the outside absolutely nothing,
My heart and mind wishes to be entirely combined,
I struggle with the thoughts that I could be set in completion and feel sublime,
A frame that views retrospective,
Deceives true self perception,
All inside are beautiful earthly ties,
Only withdrawing the negativity to portray happiness on the outside,
Out from within,
What's emited from the vision that's held secret is a deterrent,
The time and place is set for me to live in perfection,
No drought for desired emotions happily in contentment,
Achievement pain appeasement held sacred in a way that's delinquent,
The time has come to release it,
When the energetic appeal has been attained,
Fighting with all my might I can muster I hold on to happiness like a strenuous strain,
For this struggle won't be in vain,
Like water imitating the endless drops of rain,
Inside my mind like a canister constructed for chemicals to be contained,
Remain in perfection in indestructible restraints,
Although the body and mind is tainted it still manages to paint a mural that amazes,
With anguish to keep put the mind and heart aches,
inevitable it is that we make mistakes,
100 thoughts a second going through my mind as my heart races,
I forget again and again but I manage to find my center and place,
When the perfection in my mind is retrieved I will maintain(:
©frost
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