Mama take this guilt from me.
You can't use it anymore.
Your burden I once carried is no longer mine.
Mama I'm tired and worn and I'm headed for the door.
Your mouth speaks profecy.
Your heart is an empty whore.
Mama you broke me over and over but I found myself coming back for more.
I blame You for fuckin up my mind.
Mama our relationship is just one big tragedy.
You scarred me for life.
Mama's "love" splayed me open like a knife.
You left me hopeless and empty.
Struggling to survive the life that you had given me.
Rejected and dejected never to feel a mother's love.
You taught me how to burn bridges so carelessly.
Mama you taught me how not to be.
The things you wanted were not for me but for you.
Left broken and despaired you made me bitter instead of kind.
Your illusions of love are so diluted.
Your actions of love have left my soul polluted and destroyed my mind.
I've wasted too many tears and gone without you most my life.
Now the damage has been done.
In your loneliness you'll wallow.
I'm so ashamed of the guilt you've given me.
You're ashamed of the life I'm living.
I'm was so afraid of the judgement you were giving.
You're so afraid of your own self-defeat.
I'm so ashamed of you and me.
So Mama..
I'm gonna break these chains and run.
I'm gonna run faster than the bullet from your gun.
I'm gonna break these chains and live.
I'm gonna live because I have so much left to give.
©budmac38
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