when you wake up in the morning you might be thinking, "what should I have for breakfast? "
funny.. cause when I wake up my first thought is how much did I lose in the span of one night, all I ate were some grapes and a couple almonds also drank some water, I knew I had a problem when I started googling how many calories were in a stick of gum. but you see dropping calories and seeing the numbers leave from your body by the week made me feel powerful, you see trying to tell someone they have an eating disorder is almost like trying to explain to someone who is colorblind what the color blue looks like to that person and then after thinking that they can see it. I'm sorry friend it's not that simple.
I understand what I am doing is lethal but all I want is a tiny waist the fairy tales made me desire, cause if you are pretty enough the man of your dreams will come save you from your nightmares, but the hard part is being pretty, no boy wants stretch marks, no boy wants a big waist, no boy wants to be with a girl that weighs more than the average model and if you do you are a monster that no one will ever love... but no man wants a girl that doesn't love herself, no man would want a girl to look at a scale to see how much they are worth. you see the word man is so much more different then the word boy, if you let a scale or marks on ones body tell you if you love them. I'm sorry but you are only a boy.
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