Everything changed
I realised I wasn't my self anymore
It's like I had two versions of me
Unexplainable and understandable feeling
Some days I'm so happy
Jovial and optimistic
Everything seems fine
And I'm my self
A princess and happy one to be precise
I'm not worried about anything
I'm quick to solve issues
So talkative and Lively
Then here comes Mara Pain
That's the second version of me
Always upset sad and bitter
It's like a cloud of darkness in my head
A feeling of hate and anger
Rage and fierce
It's like something takes over me
And all I feel is just pain and misery
I cry a lot for no reason
Slit my wrist just to see blood drip
Overdose on my pills
And I get so angry at the world
I can't solve even a tiny problem
I hear voices in my head
Telling me to end it all
The voices get louder
I get lost and trapped in my head
It's feels like a nightmare
That I can't wake up from
And its like I'm going insane
The darkness in me takes over completely
My body ain't my own anymore
I inflict pain on me but at the moment
I feel nothing but pleasure
It doesn't matter where I'm
When I'm Mara I careless
Worryless and do things that I know nothing of
I act strange and crazy
And when the cloud is gone
I come back to my senses
Wondering what happened
Confused about everything
Just to clean Mara's mess
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
©mara_pain
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