Its a routine am not used to
Yet,
But a mandatory routine
Where i recite "i have to" mantra
For the place i head to
I have to
Put on a mask to hide my real face
Compete to be the best creation
Plaster a smile on my face
Pretend am over the struggling phase
Pretend their mocking doesn't hurt
Pretend their laughter is contagious
Pretend how happy my life is
Pretend to be an angel
Yet
My mind is in a turmoil
My demons are screaming
My tears threatening to spill
My heart shattering into more pieces
For every morning
I have to
struggle to hide the broken girl
struggle to hide my insecurities
struggle to hide my imperfections
struggle to hide my eye bags
struggle to hide my weaknesses
For the place i head to
I have to
Put on a mask
Kiddoh
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