Trisha Barrek Hopkins
July-26-2018
Would it be better if i werent here
Bc honestly how i feel
Or what i say
The ones ive known most my life
They dont show they care
They never ask how they can help me heal
Only when it benifits them
To see what things they can steal
They get angry they get mad
When i block them from fb instagram n snapchat
Cut them out of my mind with a knife
Its alright for them to treat me like shit
Or walk all over me like a friggen doormat
When i no longer wear my heart on my sleeve
They get all upset and sad
They act childish and have a hissyfit
They post our life on the internet
So i decided Im fed up and decided to go
They never ask what happened or y im upset
Instead of sending a private msg or asking
Lets post how you feel so the whole world can see
Post about everything they dont need to know
Then the nasty comments start
In this life there is no relaxing
People wonder why i have no feeling in this heart
No one can hear me cry
Or can see this falling tear
Or understands what im dealing with inside
I already feel like a ghost so y cant I already die
No one understands this fear
I always want to disappear just hide
I want to go with my angel already
Why cant i get my wings and just fly
Maybe everyone is better off without me
I even wish sometimes from myself
I could get away and b set free
Just put this body back on the shelf
And have my spirit roam around
so I no longer have to hear this breaking heart
Just peace and silence no sound
From this life i want to part
No one truely wants me anyway
I need to know y this cant b my end to my start
I feel lost and alone
I feel this every single day
Im numb inside my heart complete stone
Everynight to you nana I pray
To let me fly next to you and protect
My daughters down below
Im no longer needed on this earth in this place
So y with you nana y cant I go
At least with you i wont feel the neglect
My skies will always be blue
Ill be above the clouds of gray
Ill feel the love from you
Ill get 100% respect
You know i belong up in heaven u know its true
My next life y cant i select
Just once y cant u n God come thru
not finished will come back to it
Q