I'm scared of the rain
It's so cold
And I'm all alone
I told him to stay with
But he said I was old enough to stay alone
So alone I'm in the cold bed
He knows I'm afraid
He thinks I'm the queen of acting
Maybe He's tired of my past unresolved issues
That keeps coming back to haunt me
He's always not there for me
When I need him the most
I suffer alone and yet I'm married
Sleepless nights while he's out having fun
He doesn't seem to care about anything
He say I crave for attention
Yet that's not my intention
All I need is his presence
To distract me from these nightmares
Stop being a drama queen
He yells at me when I complain
It's all in the mind
He says to me
Stop acting like a child
He still shouts at me
But in real sense I'm not a drama queen
I'm not acting
I'm suffering and it's too much
The lightening darken my inner light
The thunders shutters my voice
The splashes freezes my heart
All I want is someone to tell that everything will be okay
And that this nightmare will soon end
Aren't we supposed to support each other
Where else can I find refuge if not in him
But again
I'm all alone in my room
It's raining heavily
And I'm scared
Scared of everything that accompanies the rain.
Mara Pain
Life is a series of pain.
Njambi
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