I thought it was a lie
Yes I really accepted it
I assumed innocence
I expected holiness
I thought it was obvious
Does it pay?!
Innocence innocence
What is your colour
Is it one in the rainbow 🌈?
Just tell me am blind
To your colours and patterns
Or am I dreaming
Oh I pray am not
Poor me
Doesn't it cost?!
Hallucinations are real
Visions all over
Or are they imaginations
They could be dreams too
Reality could be painful
But it's the bitter truth
It bleeds the 💓 heart!
Spared I pray
From the agony of this all
Where I pray it's a lie
Even when it's plain and naked
All in black and white
That we are and not I am
That we belong and not I do
That what I hate has been my meal
All by grace am able to write
Spare me 😉 now
I beg please spare me
For my goodness
My kindness
My sacrifice
My commitment
My smiles
My laughter
My pleas
My hope
Are all gone and dead
Worse of all my trust!
Forgive me
Please forgive me
Please forget all
But you know I warned
You know I tried
You know I was patient
But time was unkind
It did hit me hard
It revealed the naked truth
It made it hard for me to bear
Just forgive me
Am just done!
An answer to the big question
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