You see, my depression is like fire burning up dry grass
So fierce, mighty and powerful. Then here comes my cries just as the grass screams and burst, The flames burning in my head are so great that no amount of water can rescue me from it's claws
My depression is like a prisoner, a convict accused wrongly and found guilty by the court of law. A convict whose main aim was to prove his/her innocence but the world so unfair failed to see it, my depression got me locked up in my head, being a prisoner of my own thoughts, sentenced for a crime I know nothing about for the the voices in my head keeps on throwing mountains of blames on me.
My depression is like this cloud of darkness that covers the sky, full of lightening and thunder that shakes the world like an earthquake, then it drops pain, anguish and destruction that causes landslides and floods. It's this hole in my heart that nothing can fill, this darkness that fills my life with me screaming for help but all that comes out it's "I'm fine".
My depression is like the cries of a baby, a baby who doesn't know how to speak so she cries at everything and you are left guessing maybe she's sick or just hungry, just like tears falling down my cheeks and I can't tell what's really the matter, it's like feeling this huge pain that I'm not even sure of where it's coming from or what is causing it, it's feeling so sad but you can't explain it.
My depression is like an antelope in the jaws of a lion, so scared and so shaken, wishing for the pain to just stop or something save it from its prey, it's like being so close to death but not wanting to died, feeling the end of your miserable life but the pain is to much so you just wanna be freed, it's that scare that fright thinking of your family's pain and cries when you are gone.
My depression is like a war zone, where everyone is battling to survive, trying so hard to act strong for their loved ones or maybe for one's self. It's like there's a battle field in my head and no matter how strong I pretend to be deep inside I know I'm loosing it.
to be continued.....
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
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