Why do I always feel this
A guy shows interest and I just feel like a place holder
No matter how much they tell me otherwise
I don't feel worth the time
And I don't know what I'm doing
I want to care for other people
But I'm afraid I'm just going to hurt them
I don't feel important
I don't see myself as someone worth waiting for
I'm just a waste of space
And more of a waste of time
"Just leave me alone"
That's what I wish I could say
But the fact that you're paying attention to me
Draws me closer to you and I can't stop
I need to be alone
I need to figure out what to do with my life
I need to fix something in my brain
So I don't keep messing up
I'm so lost and afraid
And no matter how much I push
You always get closer
Just please understand
It really is me
I don't trust myself
And more importantly I don't trust my feelings
I don't want to use you
So please just go away
It's better for you
Just please trust me
I'm not the girl you think I am
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