Am tired..
Tired of standing in the rain with no rain coat,
Tired of blaming myself that everything was my fault.
Why do I keep on writing down my obnoxious naked thoughts?
Why do I keep on pretending to be everything that am not?
I've been high, I've been low
But only an inquisitive mind
can make you feel so low,
Only a subjugated mind
Can make you feel so small,
Am tired I really need to let things go.
My mind is not a loaded gun,
My mind is not a play house
For creepy thoughts That I know I can out ran.
For I know, I am my father's son.
And nothing is hidden underneath the sun
So why should I chase nightmares
when my dreams have not yet begun?
Can somebody please tell me,
Is that how it's really done?
'cause my mind has questions that
Stresses my stress,
for i know I've consistently been oppressed and depressed
But it's only when you start to question your existence Can you feel cursed,
It's only when you feel molested and your intuitions have been reassessed,
I've solemnly Scattered my brain cells for a feeling that would never be harnessed.
And Honestly speaking am tired
it's really killing me inside,
I can't seem to let things go
Am choking on my pride,
Call it stupid, call it suicide
am in desperately need to pick a side
'cause it feels like I'm blindly living on a point
where my fantasy and reality collide.
Chasing a feeling,
A feeling thats not so appealing,
Am trying to share my introspective thoughts
But my dazzling head is spinning.
The battle of my soul,
feels like the devil is winning
And from what I have heard
This is just the beginning.
But how can i exorcize all these untamed thoughts?
You know..These obnoxious naked thoughts,
Thoughts that make me pretend to be everything that am not.
'cause lately I've been high,
Lately I've been low
But only an inquisitive mind
can make you feel so low,
Only a subjugated mind
Can make you feel so small
And am tired I really need to let things go.
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