Y'all have been on my mind lately
Not gonna lie, it's just been driving me crazy
I can still hear your mama's screaming "Not my baby"
Talking about how they wish they could hold you close again
Dear Lord please explain to me why you took my friend
No reply given so I guess I'll just never understand
I think about your final thoughts as I lit my candle
Watching your soul fly away with the balloons as I release
Hard to keep my peace when I heard you died to one
Pouring out a shot for every tear that falls off of my cheek
They say memories last
Then why am I forgetting the way that you use to speak
I use to smoke and get high when I started to feel weak
I tried to drown my sorrows away with alchohol
I wish peace is among all of y'all
Holding my head down in desperation
Just wishing that you made it to that special location
It's hard to talk about loss when nobody seems to listen
Damn it Gus and Smiley I can't believe you lost your life's to drugs
Mario had a future you didint need to hang with thugs
Who hit my homie with them hollow slugs ?
Who killed my lifelong homie Blaze?
So many to name in so little time
I would give anything just to watch you shine
I heard one of y'all say "I'm not in hell homie"
It pleases me to know but I'm still very lonely
Who took my boy away from me?
Tears are runny and it makes my soul weary
That's the time when I don't want anybody near me
Mistakes we had made plenty but to me you were like family
It causes me to think my life is a blessing with a curse
It fucked me up to watch y'all get carried off in a hurse
I love each and all of y'all individually that's why this shit hurts
Hard to foucs when I just want to talk collectively
Our last conversation is on top of my memory
Hearing your passing pulled every heart string
Has me thinking that there must not be a cupid
Cause my heart is missing the portion of love
Most of the time I'm stuck in denial when i look above
Especially if we haven't spoken in awhile
God must have made a mistake by pulling out your file
I sit here alone and still miss your unique style
Thoughts about y'all makes it hard to smile
I only wish y'all didint have to die alone
Tell me will y'all be there when I'm welcomed home
I can only dream about what if heaven had a phone
Please talk to me and I promise I'll try to be strong
R.I.P. and I just hope you're where you belong.
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