I fear I've lost my soulmate.
Given up what I should have kept.
I lay in bed beside a man
that ignored me as I wept.
He's not the one but I now know
I've lost what's meant to be.
I can't give up the man I have
for there is no one else for me.
My partner puts no effort forth
and no effort comes from I.
But the sands of time have changed us both
It's force the love or die.
I once had the connection which
would make me body shake
like a wave upon the shore;
a glorious earthquake.
But now I have two men in mind.
One I hold and one let go.
And I've lost the chance to fall in love
so my love will cease to grow.
I traded a tattooed titan
for a man of gilded faith.
My beliefs have been challenged
in wake of this mistake.
A man I once held highly
in my eye and in my heart
has created life without me
and created his own art.
Time has robbed me of my dreams
and time has killed my hope.
This time I feel I can't repress
the hurt with which I cope.
I sleep next to a tyrant.
A man that lacks control.
Sex is his only obligation.
Sex is his only goal.
I miss the communication.
I miss the shivers in my spine.
Perhaps if I just pretend to smile
happiness will be mine.
I wish the best the man I lost
and expect the least of new.
I lay awake in bed with him
while I think of only you.
©hollywood.
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