BUT ANYWAYS, OUR LORD REVEALED TO ME SOMETHING IN MY DREAM THAT I KNOW OUR LORD WOULDN'T LIE TO ME. THIS DREAM WAS SO UNCANNY AND REAL. I DREAMED THAT I WAS TALKING TO LORD GANASH IN THE SAME HOUSE I WAS IN, WHICH WAS MR. BAKER'S HOUSE. I WAS PRAYING THE SAME WAY I PRAYED IN REAL LIFE. I KEPT ASKING LORD TO SAVE ME, AND I NEEDED HIS HELP TO GET ME OUT OF THIS MISERY I AM LIVING. HIS SPIRIT WAS SHOWN BY MR. BAKER'S FRONT ROOM WINDOW, AND HE WAS TALKING TO ME AND HE SAID IN QUOTE,
"MAY I COME HERE TO BLESS YOU AND SHOW YOU THE WAY. THE ANSWER IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU. DON'T WITHHOlD THE TRUTH. THIS IS IN YOUR HANDS," said Lord Ganesha.
HE DIDN'T TELL ME DIRECTLY WHERE THE ANSWER WAS, BUT HE GAVE ME SOME FORM OF HINT WHO I KNOW WHO IS RESPONSIBLE FOR POOR MR. BAKER'S DEATH, AND I KNOW IT WAS ROB, AND I AM NOT CHANGING THAT, I KNOW HE KILLED HIM SOMEHOW. ROB TOLD ME HE DIED OF A HEART ATTACK WHEN HE SAW HALF OF HIS MONEY GONE, BUT THAT DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE TO ME. I KEPT PONDERING ON THE FACT EVERYDAY OF HOW COULD A MAN'S BEST FRIEND WHO HAD SAVED HIM FROM HIS ABUSIVE FATHER AS A CHILD, AND WHEN THE GUY GETS TO HIS TEENAGE YEARS, HE KILLS HIS BEST FRIEND? THAT DOESN'T SEEM RIGHT TO ME, AND ME AND CHRIS WAS TRYING TO DIG MR. BAKER BACK UP TO FIND EVIDENCE ON HOW HE WAS REALLY KILLED. I KNOW IT WAS ROB, AND I REALLY NEED SOMEONE TO LOOK FURTHER MORE INTO IT, BUT THE MAIN REASON WHY I'M WRITING THIS LETTER TO MY LOVED ONES IS TO REVEAL THE TRUTH TO WHAT REALLY HAPPENED TO ME PRIOR BEFORE I GOT SENT HERE, AND THEY SAY I'M STAYING IN HERE FOREVER EVEN THOUGH ITS 30 YEARS BUT I CAN'T LIVE MY LIFE LIKE THIS IN A CAGE WHILE I'M STILL A KID. NO REAL INDIAN FOOD, NO GOING BACK TO NORTH INDIA TO VISIT, NO SEEING YOU GUYS NO MORE, NO FUTURE FOR ME, NO GRADUATION DAY, NO ANYTHING, I AM STUCK HERE FOREVER AND I'VE HEARD SO MANY RUMORS ABOUT HOW BAD THIS PLACE IS, AND I CAN'T LIVE UP TO THIS LIFE BEING TRAPPED IN A CAGE. SO I DECIDED THAT I AM GOING TO HEAVEN, WHERE..."
"Oh God, I can't listen anymore," Khara said starting to wail.
"It's okay hun, take her to her room Mara," Abe said.
Abe continues reading.
WHERE I CAN LIVE MY LIFE IN PEACE, NO WORRIES, NO SCHOOL, NO BULLIES, AND NO RESPONSIBILITIES. I WILL BE FREE. I KNOW THE DETECTIVES ARE GOING TO TELL YOU THAT I HUNG MYSELF, BUT THE TRUTH IS I WROTE AN EXTRA NOTE BESIDES THIS ONE AND TOLD THEM NOT TO TELL YOU RIGHT AWAY OF WHAT REALLY IS GOING TO HAPPEN IN HERE...
"OH GOD," Mala said.
I AM PUTTING SOMEONE ELSE UP TO THIS, I AM GOING TELL A CLOSE INMATE OF MINES TO KILL ME AND MAKE IT LOOK LIKE AN OLD FASHION SUICIDE DEATH THAT I DID MYSELF. OH I DID TONS OF GOOGLE RESEARCH HERE, AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THEY HAVE A LIBRARY HERE FOR PRISONERS, BUT I GOT IT, AND I LEARNED A LOT IN SEVERAL MONTHS OF HOW TO MAKE IT SEEM LIKE I KILLED MYSELF, BUT I PUT SOMEONE ELSE UP TO DO IT FOR ME. I GUESS YOU CAN STILL SAY IT'S SUICIDAL. YES I AM COMMITTING SUICIDE, AND I'M NOT AFRAID TO DIE. I WANT TO DIE. THE DETECTIVES WILL NOT EVEN KNOW SOMEONE ELSE IS GOING TO KILL ME UNTIL THEY READ MY OTHER CONFESSION LETTER TELLING THEM WHAT REALLY IS GOING TO HAPPEN. I KNOW THIS IS HURTING YOU GUYS, BUT I HAVE TO DIE, AND I WANT TO DIE, I'VE NEVER BEEN SO SURE IN MY LIFE, BUT I WANT TO BECAUSE I FEEL SO LONELY AND DEPRESSED HERE. I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE HAS TURNED THEIR BACKS ON ME ACCEPT FOR CHRIS. I JUST WANT TO SAY MALA, YOU HAVE CHOSEN A GREAT, SMART GUY WHO REALLY KNOWS HOW TO MAKE SACRIFICES FOR THE PEOPLE HE CARES ABOUT. PLEASE BE WITH CHRIS FOREVER, NO MATTER WHAT MOMMY AND DADDY SAY, CHRIS IS A GOOD GUY. I KNOW MOMMY AND DADDY WILL NOT LIKE WHEN I SAY THIS, BUT, I TRUST CHRIS AS MUCH AS I TRUST LORD GANASH, AND THAT'S THE REAL TRUTH. MOMMY, DADDY, I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU HATE THE GUY SO MUCH, BUT HE IS JUST A GUY WHO MADE A LOT OF MISTAKES AND HAS LEARNED SO MUCH FROM HIS MISTAKES. AND MARA, I LOVE YOU SIS, I HOPE YOU WILL FIND THE GUY YOU DREAM ABOUT, AND I WISH YOU LUCK ON YOUR FUTURE AHEAD IN COLLEGE. JOSEQ, BUDDY, I HOPE YOU GROW UP TO BE THE MOST BRAVEST, AND THE BETTER GUY THAT I AM RIGHT NOW, AND I WISH YOU THE BEST AHEAD IN HIGH SCHOOL, AND ALWAYS STAND UP TO BULLIES WHEN THEY MESS WITH YOU, AND TO NEVER BE A WIMP. AND MARTIA, I'M JUST LETTING YOU KNOW LITTLE SIS, THAT I READ THROUGH YOU WHEN I WAS IN SCHOOL. I SAW YOUR PAIN, EVEN THOUGH YOU DIDN'T WANT TO SHARE IT WITH ME. I SAW SOMETHING THAT WAS BOTHERING YOU, AND I REALLY WANTED YOU TO TELL ME WHAT IT WAS, BUT I REALLY HOPE YOU TELL SOMEONE ABOUT IT BECAUSE I REALLY WANT OUR FAMILY TO BE TRULY HONEST WITH EACH OTHER, AND TO TALK TO EACH OTHER ABOUT WITH EVERYTHING, EVEN IF THE TRUTH HURTS BECAUSE TO WARN YOU GUYS, KEEPING SECRETS WILL EAT US ALIVE, AND IT ATE ME ALIVE, AND IT WILL SEND ME TO MY GRAVE. THIS IS MY FAREWELL LETTER TO MY FAMILY. P.S.
"Oh, Trenti, our brother is gone," Mala said crying again.
Author Ciara Webb
Co-Assistant 26Khayali
Story written by Ciara Webb
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