Addiction is a brutal monster, it eats you alive.
It makes you forget who you truly are inside.
That monster takes you over and starts to possess you.
You find yourself doing things a sober you wouldn't do.
You become impulsive, wreckless and unpredictable.
With the monster in control, you've been left without your morals and principals.
I've struggled with these demons for quite some time, but have gotten alot better.
The demons sometimes still taunt me, writing me letters.
Sometimes I have the urge to break down and relapse.
Now I know not to go as far, I don't want to collapse.
I can control my urges, I don't need drugs to get by.
I can't say I don't sometimes wanna dance with the demon on occasion, take the edge off and get high.
I wouldn't consider myself possessed by this monster anymore.
Having him constantly breathe down my neck was a huge chore.
I refuse to take that path again, I have way too much to live for.
Now that my life's on track, there's so many amazing things I have in store.
©tiarrahope
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