when I was young up till I was 9 my life was great so said my eyes till I got older everything was changing my role model my hero my grandfather left me got to learn more then just the inside that alot was happening on the outside not only that I new I was changing that I was different then everyone saw me for me we might not think alike might not be a like I am still your kid and always be but I didn't appreciate my siblings and me be put in a middle of a battle family shouldn't be in..... if only he was alive I know for a fact he wouldn't aloud this family separate do to the childish act it became that us kids regret bringing middle of this damn pain. it hurts me more that I did this to my parents but I grew up more Shumaker then the John's.... don't get me wrong I'm still a John's always will but I prefer to be under and adopted as Shumaker under my grandfather...... even though he couldn't do it I had his son to substitute for him..... so I wrote this poem to say hey I'm still your kid just with different name..... I did it for me I wanted to be me I don't want no one else but me and my hero is what made me be me....... yes it will hurt I didn't know how tell you this because I was always bottle up and you didn't see it but I'm a Shumaker for now and future I'm see about changing it to Shumaker/John's because I want to show that my life was good then down hill when my hero my role model my grandfather was nomore..... I regret the day being a John's when he die and us kids got separated because our parents war and fight......... I love you both I do but I need what best for me not you..... I love and care for you best I can give and show but you didn't see or understand what I was going through...... yes it will hurt but I'm still your number 1 your girl your daughter I'm sorry I'm to independent and did things differently then you two wanted but it was me you couldn't change that I'm just your kid that had different opinions..........
©songua
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