Why can gays be loud and proud
but I can't even smile in a crowd
Some people say weed is bad
but my pothead friends were the only people keeping me from being sad
I understand that what I'm saying can be looked at as wrong
but when all you had was that group of friends and they are gone it makes it extremely hard to be strong
I used to feel on top of the world like feel my self-confidence uncontrollably unfurled
I miss those people it makes life hard but sometimes it's just how God decides to deal out the cards
I was always sober but they were my family and we only grew closer
then life changed and I took a turn looking at my aces and blinking my eyes which burned from all the tears because of the memories and years
I miss the highlights
I have the fear
and now I'm alone where none of them can hear
©katherine
K