Questions if Ill ever be understood
I visited my spot for one last look
It was so beautiful watching the water
The pain i feel will never disappear
I sat here thinking this is it
Having my mind already set
Nothing wouldve changed my mind
The light kept getting further away
My hatred thoughts pondered on
Felt so lifeless wasted I was gone
I looked up and saw only darkness
I became dependent and I lost it
My hands shaking as I downed the pills
It felt like dream nothing was real
Comfortably numb is what I felt
Repeated memories where Ive failed
I gave up trying there was no winning
My ears got so loud with the ringing
Watching the puddles grow around me
I finally felt myself breaking free
My vision blurrs to perfect sight
I whisper to myself its okay im alright
Feeling my body starting to jerk
Watching the grim give me a smirk
In my heart I didnt want to be saved
Gazing down at the grave ive created
I can hear you in my head screaming
I looked up to my guardian speaking
Telling me its okay im here for you
Its okay youre going to make it through
Flashing lights came through my door
Helping hands pulls me from the floor
It wasnt real i repeated as they spoke
I starred emotionless as they drove
I fought the pills telling them im okay
But they told me no that I had to stay
I was confused of what they were doing
Watching them surround me with machines
Before I knew it I was asleep for 6 days
I see myself alive in this life, I stayed..
©deathbear
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