I ignored all the signs
I stay way to long
You swore to be different
you knew what I had been through
But you got me right where you wanted me
And just kept hurting me
What's wrong with me
I'm in a constant state of sadness
I stayed
For a long time
I was numb
I no longer argued when you left me to go meet some other girl
I was your mat
That's what you needed me to be right
And I'm a people pleaser or was it because
I couldn't leave
You told me so yourself
We committed to each other
But I didn't agree to none of this
I never wanted any of this
Every time you hurt me I stuck around
You've made me feel so small
Made me believe I was worthless
I dont believe I will ever be able to love another man
And maybe that was your goal
I'm unloveable
At least that's what you told me
I'm impossible
None will want me anyway right
Maybe you really have done a number on me
Maybe you've ruined what I once was
And now I'm nothing
Thanks to you
You're my biggest regret
I should have ruined you when I had the chance
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