You don't have to do it, if you don't want to. If you're not happy about it, don't go for it. You don't owe anyone anything even the ones who think you couldn't have made it, If it wasn't for them. Yes they've made you who you are, so they say. But you don't owe them some sort of sacrifice with your life. If it won't give you a peace of mind, make you sleep at night, make you feel whole. Do not break your heart into pieces. Emotional scars heals after centuries
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