At night i think when sat in bed
Mainly guilt run's through my head
I feel ashamed of things I've done
Especially the way my life's become
All my life I've made bad choices
I drink, take drugs, loud & boisterous
I never listened when I was at school
Now I look bk I was just a fool
My grandad always use to say
Enjoy life chel, fulfill each day
But In my youth I thought I knew best
How wrong was I, my life's a mess
My behaviour was bad when I was a child
And never listened to good advice
I drink take drugs on a daily basis
I can't deal with my life if I'm not drunk or wasted
But I wish that we could turn bk time
I'd pause,press stop then press rewind
But I think that I'm to late to change
To move forward and start a new chapter and page
I've thieved and robbed dff my own kin
Just for drugs to be put in a pin
I've basically lost all of my family members
And they've tried to help by l been more than generous
But I will die if I don't change my ways
Tell myself this every single day
But as I say this the next thing I'll do
I'll smoke a crack pipe just to pull through
I really don't want to live my life like this no more
Pissed off spending all my money on going to score
©chel
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