my little loves
how I love you so
a young sweet mother
blessed with two sons
I tried so hard to keep you safe
in this day in age its set at such a fast pace
all I had to give was my loving embrace
I was 16 when I first had you markis
your father was handsome but also a rebel
he made his choices 5 years in prison
never have I been a social person so few friends and no family to turn to
I worked hard hustle is all I knew I had to try so hard so we could make it through
only 18 is when I had you Dean your father to
had to go away its so sad that I cant be a father for you
they made bad choices but they have so much love for you I know we as parents
struggle to make do but we will never ever stop loving you
I will not bad mouth them for they tried their best we cant expect nothing less I need you boys to know
my little loves
id give my life for you
my choices have been hard and i did what I could and then I found out I had cervical cancer I got strung out on all the medications I was only 21 and scared to death if you lose me theres no one left
i made many more mistakes since that day ive been fighting addictions
and past afflictions
but now I get to say 8 years in remission sober for two and its been my mission to
to prove to you the sorrow and pain we as parents brought you was wrong of us but well get through it
my little loves they kept you from me so many years of fighting the demons in me ive walked through hell
bruised and blackened
but the devils grip has slackened im stronger now then I have ever been no longer tormented by the guilt and pain I caused you its a blessing at last
my little loves no longer am I living in the past
im sorry markis your father left again he made the choice to kill that man but through his tragedy you were returned to me
through chaos and destruction like a phoenix through the ashes a new beginning ive been given my second chance at redemption
my little love
I wont let you down
this promise I will keep 12 years old
a handsome young man
now take my hand and be my strength
a mothers heart almost complete
with you here I have hope and faith its your brothers turn make no mistake Its your brothers turn to make his way home
my little loves
so grown up now I should have known i raised you well you understand more then most you make no judgement and hold no resentment that fills my heart with so much joy I thank you boys for being so strong
well all be together soon enough is not to long i love you my boys always remember you have your mothers love always and for ever
©maegan
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